St. Paul admonished the Ephesians not to grow weak in their tribulations and to be strong and rooted in charity in order to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and height and depth, and to know also the supereminent charity of the knowledge of Christ.
I would not consider any spirituality worthwhile that wants to walk in sweetness and ease and run from the imitation of Christ.
Who would not cry in your arms without instantly receiving your immaculate kiss of love and comfort?
To me you seem like a priest at the altar
You should take care always to be inclined to the difficult