I’m now in Carmel eight days. Eight days of heaven. I feel divine love in such a way that there are moments when I believe I’m unable to endure it. I want to be a pure host and continually sacrifice myself for priests and sinners. I made my sacrifice without tears. What strength God gave me in those moments. How I felt my heart torn to pieces on hearing the sighs of my mother and brothers. But I held on to God and He alone was enough.
Our Lord reproaches me for my minor imperfections and asks the smallest sacrifices, but it’s inconceivable how much they cost me. He asked me to live in continual recollection and to look at no one. And I’m to do everything out of love. I should obey at the slightest indication and have a great spirit of faith.
Saint Teresa of the Andes
Her intimate spiritual diary
14 May 1919
Griffin, M D & Teresa of the Andes, S 2021, God, The Joy of My Life: A Biography of Saint Teresa of the Andes With the Saint’s Spiritual Diary, ICS Publications, Washington DC.