I made a covenant with my hands not to be reaching
for love and praise which once were all my light.
These are for Christ by the most utter right.
I made a covenant with my tongue not to be speaking
of aught that draws me from the Word apart,
much less to interpret Him in my heart.
I made a covenant with my eyes not to be watching
to see what beauty might come down to me.
Christ is my beauty; Him alone I see.
I made a covenant with my heart never and nowhere
to be admitting any lover but Him.
I take for witnesses the seraphim.
This is the document I have been writing
in painful letters for these many years
with shame and failure and a yield of tears.
I made two copies for my own protection:
one to be carried, ready to unroll,
one to post up on gates outside my soul.
Sister Miriam of the Holy Spirit, o.c.d. (Jessica Powers)
Powers, J 1999, The Selected Poetry of Jessica Powers, ICS Publications, Washington DC.
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Oh, and happy Feast Day!!
I totally agree. I have been having this conversation with a mentor. My tendency to seek praise, approval, affirmation, from other people. My heart needs to be undivided for Christ and to welcome even dishonour as a gift. St Paul, I believe in Galatians, “If I were still pleasing people, I would no longer be what I am, a slave of Christ”…
Beautiful reflection, Kathie!